Monday, December 8, 2014

Update on Kelli and Lucas Story

We've been following Kelli and Lucas' adoption story for over two years now.  Hearing them tell us about their first adoption of their daughter-to watching them fill out papers, travel, and bring their son home this last summer.  It has been an amazing journey and one that should not be taken lightly.  Their hearts and souls were measured and weighed in so many ways and they came out strong.  We are so delighted to share with you a local story featuring this family and how they used "crowdfunding" to help cover adoption costs. Thank you Kelli and Lucas for sharing your waiting story with us!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

10 Worst Things to Say to Your Infertile BFF

You MUST check out this blog post about the ten worst things to say to your infertile BFF:
Have one to add to the list?  Comment below and tell us!

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Update on Nick and Kassie~Part 4

It's been two whole weeks since our InVitro procedures and last post.  And let me tell you something, it's been an emotional roller coaster!  So much is happening in your body during this time that you feel strangely detached and yet 100% invested in the everyday goings-on's.  After the insemination, I took three days to hole up in the house and rest.  While this is considered an "old school rule"-laying for 3 days-I wasn't going to take any chances even though my doc said I could go back to work after 2 days.  Invested family members and friends took turns keeping me company or bringing us food.  This helped out a TON and I'm so glad I said "yes" to their help. (if you have individuals in your life that want to do this for you-let them)

Going back to work was a little harder than I imagined as every movement felt like some sort of endangerment to the embryos within me.  I was also given estrogen pills and Cronin to take everyday which means, crazy-strong emotions, crying for no reason, and bouts of anger.  From what I hear, everyone is different and reacts differently to the medications.  Three days into the work week,  I began to bleed.  There was immediate shock and then overwhelming fear.  My doctor had me come in for blood test every other day the following week and we kept a close eye on the situation.
Eight days went by and I had never felt more like a failure in my life.  My body, for some reason, was rejecting all the hard work, prayers, and hopes that went into this InVitro process.  Yet, we still held on to hope and each other.   Nick was truly amazing.  Even though his worst fears were coming true, everyday he woke up and every night before he fell asleep, Nick would lay hands on my belly and pray.  He would thank God for the babies He was creating within me and would ask that our fears would turn into joy.  While our doctor has yet to rule anything out, she is asking me to continue taking the medications and wait two weeks until we get an accurate answer.

Two weeks.  Seems longer than the 9 years we've been trying to get pregnant.  
Yet, we will wait, we will hope, and we will pray. 

Stay tuned, we will be posting again in two weeks!
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Saturday, October 11, 2014

Update on Nick and Kassie Part 3

Friday morning we awoke early, excited, and nervous. It was the day of our final IVF procedure. It took all of ten minutes-seriously. It was uncomfortable and emotional. Nick just kept smiling as he suited up, ecstatic to get this "show on the road."  I on the other hand, was trying to remain controlled and somewhat detached. Our doctor was amazing and the nurses kind and grandmotherly. Two embryos were inserted with three frozen for a later date. After the procedure, I went home and put my feet up for the rest of the day.  Nick's been super sweet waiting on me and grinning at me, besotted with the idea of what we hope is to come. It's been a precious time, just us two, dreaming and hoping that these little guys come into fruition.
We are so appreciative for the prayers that have been said, the food that's been dropped off, the flowers and visits, and donations towards our journey. Thank you for being apart of our story, we can't wait to share the next chapter with you! 

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Thursday, October 9, 2014

Thoughts About IVF the Night Before

‘Twas the night before IVF and all through the house,
Words were sparse from spouse to spouse.

Lost in in the thoughts swirling in the air,
Each reaching out to the other to let them know they care.

Leaving for an ice cream date,
To talk about life and their fate.
Realizing that if the plan was to succeed,
Their fear would finally be freed.
It was off to bed to get ready for the day,
But not before they held each other to pray.
Will you join us in hopes to see His glory,
While we wait for another baby story?

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Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Update on Nick and Kassie~Part 2

Sunday Morning-Kassie went in for the "harvest" of the 15 eggs we were blessed with. While they might not be able to use all of them, we are hopeful for good, healthy, amount. She will be out for a day or two to recover and rest.The following Friday-the 10th-we will go back in for the actual implantation of the fertile eggs. Kassie will be resting for a longer period this time to give us the best chance possible to get pregnant. It's GO TIME!!!!
Monday Morning-They were able to retrieve 7 of the 15 and feel very hopeful about that number. Today, we found out that 6 of the 7 took to the fertilization and are now considered embryos. We now wait and pray as they will mature over the next couple of days. Kassie is feeling crampy and sore, but will go back in Friday for the implanting. We will once again wait, pray, and hope that our family of two will grow. It has been a rough 8 year journey to get to this point, and yet, we are so thankful to be here. Thank you for your kind words and prayers, we couldn't do it without you!

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Monday, October 6, 2014

Another Chapter Begins!

An update on Nick and Kassie's Story~Part 1:

This morning, Nick had a testicular biopsy which is his portion of surgery in our IVF process. He is doing well and just needs to rest and take it easy for a couple of days. It was very hard for me (Kassie) to see my hubby, my man, my rock, in such pain, but I am so proud of the strength and courage he has had through all of this.

During his surgery, I had another ultrasound that showed that all 15 eggs are maturing-slowly. They decided to give me another 24 hours of meds before deciding whether or not I will have surgery this weekend. We'll make sure to give you an update tomorrow!

So, how are we doing? Jane Austen sums it up best, "I am half agony, half hope." It has been such an emotional and physical roller coaster and it's hard to not have hope while going through all this agony. The finances tend to be the half agony portion as each ultrasound and round of medications cost $2,000 out of pocket. With my surgery coming up, we do not know where we are going to get the funds, but have hope that the provisions will come. 

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Sunday, August 31, 2014

Straight Talk on Infertility Stuff~Part Two

This is part two of Straight Talk on Infertility Stuff.  Read part one at:
Infertility Meds-Uh, can we talk about something else?  They were delivered in a large box that I couldn't open for 2 days.  I took shots at 7:00 in the morning and 7:00 at night and HATED everything about it.  Getting used to the idea of giving yourself a shot takes some time.  I really thought I would be fine with it, but ended up chickening out and made my amazing hubby do it.  Twice a day he lovingly stuck me with a needle knowing it caused me pain.  He hated it just as much but kept telling me, "This is a means to an end."  It stung a little going in and I felt queasy for about an hour after.  I did find myself becoming quite emotional, but don't know if it was due to the meds or the whole situation.  There is also a estrogen patch that some might have to wear throughout the process as well and this is probably the easiest thing by far.

Emotions-They go, they go down, and your head just seems to never stop spinning around.  It's so hard to keep from getting angry, crying at the drop of a hat, or feeling numb.  It's important to tell your closest friends and family members that you will be extra sensitive and a little...not your self.  I found that I just curled up with my thoughts.  Those closest to me, went above and beyond by reaching out with meals, distractions, and sweet words.  My hubby was a champ throughout the whole event and I've never felt more blessed to have him by my side.  There were some rough times, but he understood that this was only for a short time.

Egg Release-This happens when your eggs do not grow according to schedule, you have a "rogue egg," or they just aren' "right."  We walked into our appointment so excited to see how the medications had worked and how we were one step closer to the actual surgery date.  Unfortunately, I had a "rogue egg" and was given a pre-filled syringe to take that evening to release the eggs.  While some may see this as a part of the process, I felt as if my body had betrayed me and our dreams of starting a family had once again been dashed.  For two days I wallowed in my sorrow while my body reacted to the shot.  Large red welts spread all over my stomach and I was quite feverish.  Never had I ever been so hot in all my life.  The welts soon disappeared while hot flashes remain-get used to those, it seems as if you'll never cool down!

Continuing On-We find ourselves now continuing on with a different type of treatment and the time we wait has never been more exasperating!  The amount of bills compete with the same amount of emotions as we wait and pray for my body to work with the new dates circled on the calendar.  Sensitivities are high as we once again allow ourselves to hope and dream of the family we are meant to be.  We busy ourselves with work, friends, cook outs, parties, and the 8 families in our lives who find themselves pregnant or giving birth all within the same 2 months.  This too brings another bought of emotions, but nothing brings us more happiness than to help welcome a new babe into this world.  Prayers and well wishes for own babe are appreciated, donations towards our fund continue to trickle in:  We are ever so greatful for the people who've made meals, send cards, call, and just take part in our life.  It makes continuing on a bit more easier.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Straight Talk on Infertility Stuff~Part One

Sharing our stories, journeys, and adventures, allows us to experience and learn from others.  This last summer I found myself overwhelmed with infertility/fertility treatments and felt like I was floundering on my own.  So, I kept a short diary of the treatments and thought I might share them with you!~K
Fertility Calendar-Depending on who your doctor is, their most likely going to hand you a calendar of "events" for the month prior to your actual procedure date.  Our calendar had multiple abbreviations on each day and didn't allow for much additional writing.  We keep this on our fridge so we don't forget anything.  I'm going to be honest, it is super overwhelming. Seeing the end date everyday caused me to cry multiple times-from pure emotion of the fact that we are in this process.

Bills-Not my favorite thing to write about, but it is a  HUGE part of the process.  It seems like we have received a bill every other day for the last several months, and they just kept coming!!!!  There's multiple ways to pay for your treatments depending on the clinic you go to.  Our insurance doesn't cover one thing so, we pay as we go except for the actual procedure.  The entire amount is due the day of our procedure. $20,000 paid up front prior to surgery.  Talk about overwhelming!  We have saved every penny, applied for a loan, and friends and family have helped by donating towards our gofundme site:

Uterus Measuring-This is where a "balloon" is inserted in you and then filled with saline to measure the uterus and insemination path.  After awhile, the balloon is deflated and you feel like your literally peeing your pants.  Be aware-you might still have fluid inside you that will come out later.  Thank God for leather couches!  This happened to be a bit painful for me and was an experience that I absolutely hated!  I'm was so thankful to have my mother-n-law there to hold my hand.

Egg Measuring-This process isn't that bad.  They take an ultrasound wand, insert it, and just move it around measuring eggs.  It's uncomfortable, but not painful.  Get used to this procedure, it happened 5 times for me within 3 months.

Come back tomorrow for part two of Straight Talk on Infertility Stuff!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

An Update on Nick and Kassie

Still Waiting

Two weeks ago, I began taking hormone shots twice a day to begin beefing up the eggs that would be "harvested" for insemination.  I really thought I would be able to give myself shots, but soon found that a shaky hand was NOT good when dealing with a needle.  So, my hubby lovingly gave me my shots every morning and every night and it always ended with a screech and a few laughs. After the week of shots, we went in to discover that my eggs had doubled in size while one tripled!  It sounds like a good thing, but in infertility world, this was not.  We want all the eggs to grow at the same rate and when one takes off like "the monster egg," we have to let them all go.  When the doctor told us that we would have to release the eggs and try again, we were devastated and shaken.  This was supposed to be the easy part!

Needless to say, the following couple days was a bit rough.  After taking the "trigger shot" to release the eggs, I ended up having a reaction to the hormones and I will leave the painful details out.  We now begin another waiting game, blood tests, and holding on to the faith that keeps us going.  We will try again with the shots one more time as the week of shots costs $3,000 and we don't want to dip into the funds we raised for surgery.  If it doesn't work the second time, we will have to awhile to heal physically and emotionally before making another decision.  In the mean time, we continue praying, working overtime and picking up odd jobs to help keep our doctor bills from piling up, and try to focus on other things happening in our life.  School will be starting up for me and Nick's job is keeping him super busy.  We haven't really told a lot of people the "calendar of events," and thank you all for the encouragement during this process.  A few friends have kept our minds off of things with trips to the zoo, swimming, dinners at our favorite pizza joint, or just having us over to hang out with their families.  These events take our minds of of things and allow us to feel somewhat "normal."

Thank you all for your inquiries, your encouragement, and love.  We couldn't do this without you!
~Nick and Kassie

Friday, July 4, 2014

HOPE Changes Everything

Hello Blogger World, Facebook Fans, Forever Friends, Family Members, and the Total Strangers who we have yet to meet,

      We started Waiting for Baby Stories a couple years ago, bravely telling the world about our journey through infertility.  It was a way to remind us of how far we had come and how far we had to go.  It was also easier to blog about our life rather than call the 100+ friends and family members to give them updates!

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Throughout the last two years, we have shared our continued journey as well as several other stories of couples journeys through adoptions, miscarriages, infertility, and the crazy ways we sometimes become families.  I have found myself crying along with these beautiful mamas while my husband offers kind words to the papas,  we have prayed diligently over the families who trust us with their stories, and now find ourselves in the crazy cycle of Invitro, where Hope is the only thing we have to hold on to.

It has been an amazing comfort to me to go back and read others stories and gain encouragement as I face unknowns of Infertility and Invitro. I am so humbled that others would share about their experiences so openly with the rest of the world as we truly learn from others stories.  You all have been a major support to me whether you know it or not and I rejoice with you in the babes that have come and believe for those yet to come.

The main purpose of us writing today, was to check in and tell you how much we appreciate you visiting our blog and Facebook page:  I also wanted to let you know that there's is a slight possibility that our blog or Facebook page might not have as frequent of posts as it usually does.  As we get down to the wire on our Invitro date, it means we will more doctors appointments, needles, ultrasounds, than time.  We are going to document the process because let me tell you, it is scary going to these things and not knowing what the heck is going on!  So, I'll be the BIG sister and tell you!

Thanks for turning another page,
~Kassandra and Nicholas

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Waiting Praise

"I'm gonna sing my song like I am unashamed"
Praising before the baby is named
Oh weeping woman, yet to be a Mother
Strengthen your spirit as you share this time with another
Eagerly waiting for arms to be filled
Laying a foundation of faith for a family to be built

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Titus James Catherman's Story

I recently came across this blog called, "Salty Believer."  The following post, "Titus James Catherman," is a story difficult to read and even more difficult to live through.  However, their story showed strength through their pain and encouraged me to continue this journey we see ourselves on.  I am so thankful for this families story and I'm once again reminded of the power our stories have to help and heal others.  Click the following link to read more about Titus:

Sunday, May 25, 2014

We Are Made Of Stories

We are all made up of stories, what's yours?
There's healing in telling your story.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Feelings Towards Pregnancy Announcements

There is no better news than to hear a loved one, a family member, or friends announce their pregnancy.  Yet, it can also be the most painful for someone who is dealing with infertility, a sudden miscarriage, or in the middle of a waiting period.
Currently, we have 8 friends and family members announce their pregnancies within this last month.  While it could be a really tough, trying, and unhappy time, we have chosen to maintain pure joy for the little lives being blessed to this world.  Why would we be upset?  Because it isn't our turn?  How childish does that sound?!  Why would be be mad that a dear one has been given the gift of life either physically or through adoption?  Would we want them to be mad at us when it's our turn?  When we've been blessed?  I don't think so.  Plus, it has always been a belief of mine that those small little people within the womb can feel the love or disappointment of their arrival and why would you not want anything else but to send love love and light?  So, let's start celebrating the joys along with our friends and family members.  One day we will be in the same position....

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Sending Birthday Love

We here at Waiting for baby Stories would like to send some birthday love out to all our readers.  even if it's not your birthday, still close your eyes and make a wish!

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Special Items Just for You

For more information about National Infertility Week, check out this link:

In honor of National Infertility Awareness Week, we found a few special items just for you on one of our favorite online shopping sites~Etsy! You can find anything fun to serious for those special moments during your time of waiting.
Babydust Luck Charm:
Worth the Wait Print:
Eventually Necklace:
Mommy and Daddy's Answered Prayers Onesie:
How to Pray Through Infertility, Adoption, Foster Care, Waiting:

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Funny Video about NOT to Say to Adoptive Parents

I noticed the following video making it's rounds on Facebook and finally sat and watched it.  Sooo funny and LOVE that this family takes the time to not just poke fun at a serious subject, but then educates on behalf of families everywhere with correct verbage!  Check it our and tell us what you think!

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Let Go

Let Go.  
Just Let Go.....

*Of stating that you are infertile
*Of saying that you "will never be parents"
*Of being sad, negative, spiteful when others get pregnant
*Of avoiding the baby aisle at Target
*Of taking it out on your mate-give each other a break
*Of being logical
*Of creating excuses NOT to attend your friends and families baby showers
*Of avoiding babies-the world is full of them

Let Go.
Just Let Go....And....

*Pray to Papa-God about your fertility
*Start saying how wonderful your going to be as a mother or father
*Cry happy tears because your friend or family member is having a baby!!!
*Look at all the adorable baby items you will have to buy at Target
*Go on a date with your mate-you BOTH deserve it!
*Sometime you need a good cry.  Then go out for ice cream!
*Attend those baby showers, they will remember if you didn't when your time comes
*Love the babies in your life. Hold them and give them all the life and love you can muster-You will want others to do that for your babe.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Maintaining "Romance" While Waiting

The following is a tag-team approach to writing this blog post.

Kassandra~We are sitting on the couch, side by side, writing this post after a discussion we had last night about "Romance." Well, it wasn't really a discussion, it was more like me saying "When was the last time you romanced me?" and him answering, "When was the last time you romanced me?" I laughingly replied, "Oh, it's on" and with the gauntlet thrown down, I laid in bed for an hour staring into the dark and scheming at how I was going to "romance" my man.

Nick~The Mrs. asked me last night when the last time I romanced her was. So, I turned around and asked her the same thing.  Today, I got flowers at work....perhaps this is the problem? We romance each other the way we want to be romanced.  Flowers are nice, so should I send her a t-bone at work?
Even after ten years of marriage, it isn't really the way we end up romancing each other, it's the fact that we take time too romance each other.  Waiting for baby, going through the heartache of infertility, and the pain of procedures tends to take the romance right out of a relationship.  Which is why it is so important to check in with each other every once in awhile.  Even though flowers were sent and a steak would have been preferred, it is the opportunity to see that one is making the effort to maintain the relationship despite the ups and downs we face together.

Here is a list of idea's we came up with together to help you and your significant other maintain "romance" in your  relationship while waiting:
  • Send flowers~To Him OR Her~at work, they will be the talk of the water cooler!
  • Make your loves favorite meal AND take care of the dishes!
  • Leave your wife/husband a steamy message on the bathroom mirror
  • Fill-Up your significant others gas tank as well as their LOVE tank
  • 5 minute massages go a long way....
  • Write each other a love letter
  • Buy your sweet their favorite treat and share
  • Dress up and go out for a night on the town
  • Take a walk around the neighborhood-holding hands
  • Bust out those furry handcuffs that you got from your pre-wedding party. You never know if you'll wind up in fits of laughter with your best friend or having your best friend try them on!  Let's remember how much fun sex is!
  • Lastly, pray together.  First and foremost this has been the glue that has kept us together.  We pray every night with each other and we always know the other is lifting us up throughout the day.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Encourage The People In Your Life

Throughout the last 10 years, we have been each other's constant companions and champions.  We have lifted each other up with kind words and fervent prayers.  There has been many who have come along side us and encourage us with their own ways as well.  These small acts of kindness are what have brought us through several surgeries, countless doctors appointments, and very low moments in our story.  With the help of several friends and their creative ideas, we have put together a list of encouraging ways to help those in your life who may be going through similar times.
  • Send a card.  Everyone loves getting mail, especially if it isn't medical bills!!!
  • Bring a meal. There are many moments where one cannot fathom the idea of cooking.
  • Set-up a date night for the couple, movie tickets, gift card to a restaurant, etc.
  • Prepare several days of encouraging words, verses, inside a decorated box or jar.
  • Bake a dozen cookies or a batch of muffins!
  • Find ways to support the family financially through monetary gifts or gift cards.
  • Set-up a Boys/Girls night out to help the couple let loose!!!
  • Create a basket of calming trinkets of lavender, massage oils, candles, etc. 
  • Pray for the family AND let them know your praying!!!!

Monday, April 7, 2014

"Let Hope In"-Bashtas Story

This story of healing for the Bashtas breaks through on The Invisible in the song "Let Hope In," which expresses Daniel's literal, spiritual devastation of infertility and the miracles that sprang out of this desert. Song after song, the album gives voice to the faith of a generation willing to open the door for the miraculous, redemptive work of God to infiltrate everything. 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Do YOU Have A Story???

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Thursday, March 27, 2014

Waiting for Baby Mayo~Talking to GMa

There are people in this world who will not understand the struggle of infertility.  Plain and simple, they've never had to deal with it so they can only sympathize and give their opinions.  My GMa is one of those people.  Her and my Grandpa planned their babies-"two beautiful girls"-and had them with no hiccups.  If only it were that easy!  Talking with my GMa about our infertility struggles, the possibility of adopting, and the upcoming Invitro process, has been enlightening, confusing for her sometimes, and sometimes down right hysterical!
My GMa has turned out to be one of the bright spots in this crazy time of conceiving.  Always praying and "telling God" what to do for her grandkids, she has given us much to think about and convicted us in areas of our faith.  Just yesterday, we went to lunch together, talked about upcoming appointments, and the depressing price tag.  Her answer?  "Well, have you given it God?  That's what He's there for!"  I couldn't help but chuckle at her lovely wrinkled face with all sorts of serious etched upon it.  "Yes, GMa, we are praying."  A little while later when we were driving home, the conversation again once turned to little babes and looking forward to holding them.  I told her I get a little choked up to think of her holding my child and that we will be able to have a precious 4 generation photograph.  She looked at me with a twinkle in her eye and said, "I don't mind being a Great-Grandma cause I'm already great!"  It took half a second before we were busting out laughing.  These are the moments through the pain that I never want to forget.  And I can't wait until our little one is here to meet this wonderful woman.

Who do you have in your life that is uplifting during your time of waiting?    

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Waiting For Baby Mayo~Fundraising

A lot has happened since we posted last week that we are going through the IVF process.  Friends, family, co-workers, and complete strangers have offered support, encouragement, and opportunities to fundraise!  This is something we were not expecting as we weren't quite sure fundraising for IVF would be accepted.  We have spent countless nights praying and worrying over how we are going to pay for the $20,000 IVF process let alone the medications we both have to take.  It only took two nights of feeling like we were going to have to put things on hold to get second jobs, work overtime, beg our parents and the bank for money when we got a call.  A friend of my mother's-someone we've never met-asked if she could help host a fundraiser on our behalf.  As a Thirty-One consultant, she would be willing to donate her commission to our IVF!  Two days later we added a silent auction, a jewelry consultant, a photographer, and my mom's husbands restaurant is going to donate food!  This thing got huge overnight!!!! We also were encouraged to start a gofundme page which we highly recommend for others going through the process as well.  Hey, every little bit helps!  

Fundraising is such a humbling experience.  My hubby and I really wanted to try to do this on our own, but realized really fast that we couldn't.  It took awhile to get comfortable with the idea of others helping us this way, but we also found a peaceful knowledge that our prayers were being answered.  We are so overwhelmed by the love and support coming our way, it tends to be quite emotional at times. We hope this inspires other people to use their time and talents to help other couples they may know with this process.  We are all waiting for something or someone, it helps to stay strong and positive when others are alongside you.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Update on Nick and Kassie's Story~And So It Begins...

This is us, in a fertility clinic.  It has taken over ten years, countless tests, a tramatic biopsy, having an overy removed, and too many drugs to count, to finally get here.  The days leading up to this appointment left us feeling anxious and hopeful.  The morning found us praying together before we left for work and praying again in our car that afternoon.  
The initial consultation was a lot of information to process, some options to think about that we didn't know would come up, and the overwhelming knowledge that several weeks of hormone shots, 2 surgeries, and $20,000 will get us pregnant.  While we have 47% chance of conceiving, we are willing to embark on this new adventure in hopes to begin our dream of a family. Hope Changes Everything.

Friday, March 14, 2014

We're on Pinterest

Do to inquiries and more opportunities to share with others, we created a Pinterest Board!  Click here:  to see the latest articles, funny pictures, and tearful stories about individuals dealing with infertility, adoption, miscarriages, and all those other things that prevent us from creating bigger and better families.  Enjoy and feel free to share your pins with us! ~K

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Love You Forever

Everyone at one time or another, has seen or heard of the Robert Munsch book, "Love You Forever."  A story about a moth who loves her baby as he grows older.  However, the author wrote this book as a song-to his two stillborn children.  After I found this out, the book took on a whole new meaning.  Check out the following link for more information:

Friday, February 21, 2014

This Is Not The End

Up until this moment, my adult life has seemed like an open book-I have two blogs and host four Facebook pages for heavens sake!  Everyone knows our business.  However, I have learned that sharing the choices you make in life comes with harsh criticism and judgement most of the time.  Throughout this blog I have felt a shift in relationships, wondered how long I can keep this up, bawled my head off and then smiled through the tears.  I've loved and I've lost and I've found my voice.

Which is why after debating whether or not to make this public, we have decided to continue sharing our story in hopes to just let people know their not alone in their process and give us a record of all the crazy we've endured during the infertility process.  Sometime this Spring-I still want to keep some stuff private-we will be seeing a fertility specialist.  It has taken us 8 years to get to this point.  We've gone through surgeries, medication trials, "resting," and enough waiting to last a lifetime. There have been so many conversations weighing the pros and cons about starting this chapter and then the everyday going-ons in life that have gotten in the way. 

So, we've weighed and measured and come to this chapter.  How we write it out is a total mystery and we hope you will read along because this is NOT the end of our story!

Monday, February 3, 2014

Your Journey

There isn't a day that goes by that someone does not make a comment about the "journey" we are on.  Most of the time they are telling us what they would do if they were in our situation and yet, unless they've been in this situation, they have nothing to say that will make sense at this time.  Which is why I am reminded that God saw fit to put my husband and I together to face this matter-no one else. It is just the two of us writing our story the best way we see fit, waiting and praying with every breathe.~K

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Standing in the Line of Life

We were recently sent this lovely story yet, we do not know the origin or author.  Enjoy!
The checkout line is long, and inevitably, I’m in line behind the coupon queen. I like watching extreme couponers on HGTV, but in real life – not so much.

As I stand there, I find myself staring at the checkout line aisle, and all the sudden, I venture off my shopping list. You know what I’m talking about; under the mints and the gum are all the items I forgot that I needed. Like, floss picks, hand sanitizer, and Tide-To-Go sticks. And while I’m at it, I find myself picking up a lint roller, even though I never lint roll anything. Ever. My moment of weakness peaks when I grab peanut m&ms.
Thankfully coupon diva takes so long I’m able to knock some sense into myself and put the “things I didn’t know I needed” back onto the shelf where they belong.
Those checkout lines are strategic. We all know this. We’ve seen many a tantrum as the child lusts after Fun Dip candy at eye level, only to be told a devastating no.
However, I’m starting to realize I stand in that checkout line a lot more than just at the grocery store.
The longer I linger there, the more things I start to think I need.
And the longer I linger there, the more discontent I become with what I have.
I’m not talking just about lint rollers.
Thanks to social media, I see the best of everyone’s world. I have binoculars into girls I hardly talked to in high school as well as people I’ve never even met. I stand in that tempting line every time I pull out my phone and peer into their lives.
I start to admire their new careers, and my world starts to feel small. I wonder if I should have gone the business route. After all, I was good at math; why did I pursue writing?
I start to see their new homes and their renovations, and my apartment – which I previously loved – starts to feel a little more outdated and a lot more cramped. I see triathletes and half marathoners, and my 2 trips to the gym this week seem so pointless. I see them travel abroad, and a bitterness creeps in that my husband and I can’t just hop on over to Europe.
I see my friend who lost 30 pounds, and my extra few pounds last year graced me with seem to multiply.
The longer I stand in the line, the more items I throw in my cart – things that promise me that I need them. They tell me I need them to feel happy again; they tell me they’ll make life easier again.

They tell me they’ll fulfill me, and that I need them to be fulfilled.
I cannot avoid those checkout lines. They’re everywhere, and they’re strategically waiting for me.
But, I can be ready. I can decide to stick to my list, and instead of setting my gaze next door on the shelves, I can peer back into my cart. In my cart I see everything I need.
In my cart I see my husband who loves me well. I see our small apartment that we spent the entire summer decorating. I see our office where I find so much joy writing, and if I look up, I see where I accidentally painted the ceiling.

My life is messy but it’s a good life.
I see a calendar that has weddings to attend and family to see, and I remember how grateful I am to have loved ones to see and celebrate.
In my cart I see my life as it is. I see joys and sorrows piled high on depth and resolve. Prior to standing in line I knew that frugality leads to freedom and tough conversations and accountability lead to life.
And that’s what I want – freedom and life.
Prior to standing in line, I knew that was all I needed. I must remind myself over and over and over again. For me, that meant last week I had to say no to social media. I’m not sure what this week looks like.
All of our carts are different. We all need different things, but I guarantee that nothing in that checkout line will ever fulfill us.
The less time we stare at the things “we didn’t know we needed” the more we’ll realize we didn’t know we needed them, because we don’t need them.