I am strong because on October 15th, 2010 at 37 weeks pregnant we walked into our OB office and found out our son Tiberius had passed away. I am strong because I laboured for 12 beautiful hours and gave birth to my stillborn son in a silent room. I am strong because on October 22nd 2010, my husband and I buried our first child.
I am strong because 12 weeks after we buried our first son we found out we were expecting again.
I am strong because on May 2nd, 2011, at 18 weeks pregnant, we found out our second son Jacob would not be coming home with us, he was given a fatal diagnosis.
I am strong because despite having a fatal diagnosis we chose to carry Jacob and do everything we possibly could.
I am strong because during the next 18 weeks Jacob's diagnosis changed into something no medical doctor had ever seen before and his prognosis became unknown.
I am strong because on September 5th, 2011, our son Jacob was born via c-section. He cried even though we were told he would not.
I am strong because for the next 2 1/2 days Jacob fought so hard to stay with us and we fought so hard to keep him comfortable and did everything we could.
I am strong because at 7:45pm on September 7th, we had to make a decision no parent should ever have to make, we pulled his life support and Jacob peacefully passed away.
I am strong because on September 14th, 2011 we buried our second child.
I am strong because 9 months after we buried Jacob we decided to try once more.
I am strong because we became pregnant with what we hoped would truly be our rainbow babe.
I am strong because at 18 weeks we found out we were having a healthy little girl.
I am strong because I carried her for 36 1/2 weeks all along knowing we could lose her too.
I am strong because on January 8th, 2013, I was induced and we were on the way to meeting our miracle babe.
I am strong because after 16 rough hours of vbac labour, our miracle baby, Phoebe Faith, was born. Crying, screaming, healthy and alive.
I am strong because even though I only parent one child, I am a mother of three.
I am strong because I have carried 3 children full term but two already reside in Heaven.
I am strong because I chose to cling onto hope and faith when everything else was against us.
I am strong because parenting a rainbow baby is a challenging time in life.
I am strong because I now live with PTSD and fight with it on a daily basis. But I REFUSE to let it define who I am.
I am strong because my hopes and dreams have been shattered but I chose to hold on and now have a beautiful little girl who is the light of my life.
I am strong because I am sharing my video about my journey with you: http://youtu.be/g5Urhe0aq44 Please know my video does contain pictures of my boys after they have passed. If this is too much for you, please do not watch.
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